closeyes.pom
(c) 1997, Patti Pasculli
a poem

NOTE: in memory of Paul Sparda, about his suicide
      he didn't do it yet, he was still alive, just talking about it
      around the time he got the gun

"i close my eyes"
written 5-7-95 at 4:43pm

have you ever though about putting a gun to your head?
   - every day
did you ever think about pulling the trigger?
   - sometimes
how did it feel?
   - attractive

i feel the blood trickle down my face
it feels warm and wet
   sexy and beautiful
i felt life for the first time
   running through my veins
      pumping
i feel sexy
   warm 
      and wet
i think i'll close my eyes
i feel beautiful
   warm inside
close my eyes